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Day 8 - Dear Favourite Internet Friend (snoopyowns a.k.a Zoellys a.k.a Zoey),

Thank you.  Thank you for being so caring and so wonderful.  Ever since you started following me you have been there.  You have listened to me rant literally all day long at some points and I really really thank you for that.  I need a friend that can be there for me when I need them most and you always seem to be there and that’s amazing.  You don’t seem to judge me and you are always trying to cheer me up.  I’m glad I have you on msn and facebook now.  You make my life better and I’m so glad I’m getting to know you.  I can’t wait for when we can finally meet in person.  I’m so excited for rainbow cake, and martinis, and lattes, and anything else amazing we can think of.  It’s going to be a fun, fun time.  I just want you to know how awesome you really are.  I look forward to our conversations and I hope you look forward to them too.  You are a beautiful, fantastic, funny, wonderful person.  You make my life better.  I’m so glad you’re in it.

Love,
~Swooshy

Day 7 - Dear Ex Girlfriend (Carlie),

I hate that I’ve had to cut off all contact with you…it was just getting so hard.  I still care about you and I wish there was another way to go about this.  I can’t accept that you’re with somebody who’s so young and that you’re with somebody new and rubbing it in my face.  It’s just what I needed to do to get over you and it really is helping.  I wish you could understand why I had to do this.  I hope that you do.  We have such a history and our friendship even goes beyond the 3 years we were together.  We have always been friends right from the start.  We have seen eachother at our best and our worst and been through so much.  We connected better than anybody I’ve ever been with and we understood each other.  I loved you so much and thought that we would spend the rest of our lives together.  I wish I could still turn to you when I have a problem but every time I do I just get sad because I’m not longer really a part of your life.  All of our “mutual friends” that were your friends first disowned me when we broke up.  They thought everything was my fault.  They never realized it was you who stopped loving me and you never set them straight.  I still miss you sometimes when something happens or comes up that reminds me of our 3 years together.  You will always be a part of my heart…i don’t think anything can ever change that.  Perhaps we can talk again when I’ve decided it’s safe for me.  We’ll see.  I hope one day we can be friends again.

I love you always,
~Erin

Day 6 - Dear Stranger,

Just because I’m a retail associate doesn’t mean you need to be an asshole or treat me like crap.  I graduated from college, but unfortunately because of the economy I’m forced to work this shitty job to make money, and along the way I have to deal with fucking egotistical people like you.  NO you CANNOT be the only person to bring your cart into the fitting rooms and NO you CANNOTbe the only person to bring in 11 items instead of 10 and NO you CANNOTreturn the underwear “just this once”.  I don’t make up the rules, i just tell you to abide by them.  There’s no point in arguing with me, the rules are still going to be the rules, and NO the customer is NOT always right and NO telling my manager is NOT going to get me into trouble when you were the one causing all the fuss in the first place.  We LAUGH about you when you leave the store.  Lol.  We think you are nothing but a big baby.  Didn’t we all learn to listen and abide by rules when we were in kindergarten?  I know I did, but maybe that’s just me.  I don’t hate you per say, I just think you need to learn some manners and some common courtesy.  Since when has throwing items at an associate been a way of solving problems?  It hasn’t.  I think we all just need to go back to what we learned as children…or maybe you didn’t learn anything and that’s the problem.

Signed bitterly,
~Erin

(*This isn’t one single customer, this is a generalization about all crazy customers that I have encountered, and this isn’t even touching on everything I’ve had to go through.  Hope you all enjoyed*)

Day 5 - Dear Dreams,

I wish you would come around more often and actually make me happy when you do.  I either sleep very deeply or not deeply enough and rarely get to meet you, and when I do you generally make no sense.  My brain works in funny ways but it’s not very nice to leave me upset and crying or nearly crying when I wake up.  Making me happy would be a nice change.  Just saying.

Love,

~Erin

Day 4 - Dear Sibling,

I realize you’re a blood relative/my brother and all but I don’t feel close to you in the least.  All you ever do is sit on that damned computer and play your stupid game.  You never want to go out and do anything and you never want to talk about stuff.  I tolerate you because you’re around but I don’t really like you very much.  You get away with far more than I ever did at your age.  You have never had a job and you’re nearly 20 years old.  You don’t even try and mom and dad don’t seem to care that you’re not making any money and haven’t graduated from highschool, meanwhile they’re charging me rent and trying to kick me out.  Sometimes I hate you.

~Erin

Day 3 - Dear Parents,

I know I’m distant from you but there’s a reason for that.  I know you don’t accept my sexuality or understand it and there’s no way for me to make you.  It hurts a bit, but I do what I need to do to help us all live in harmony in this house.  It’s easier to be silent about who I like and who I date.  When I move I promise I’ll be more open about my relationships.  As it is, it’s hard enough to live here and be nagged at all the time about what I’m going to do with my life and when I’m going to find a better job.  I don’t need any other stresses on top of that.  I’m sorry I haven’t been honest with you about how bad my depression can still sometimes be.  It’s easier for me to be quiet and talk to my friends about things.  Even though we’re not close, i still love you.  I hope one day I can be more open with you.  I’m thankful to even have parents.  I know I have it better than a lot of people do.  Thanks for giving me food and a roof over my head.  I appreciate it.

~Erin